Hilarious. Absolutely hilarious.
What always made me laugh about this scene was the hypocrisy. Every single person involved in it is a hypocrite.
Right from the start the fight began to make the scene open and sharing so that every one had the same. Yet, when put in the position of having something that others did not the hypocrisy would begin.
What I mean is, basically when any member was given access to something that others did not have the immediate reaction was control. Years and years ago I approached DS who was the spokesperson for BFEMU because I wanted to make a layout for it. All of a sudden I'm met with all sorts of rules and restrictions. I spend three days busting my ass on it only for him to tell me I could not release it.
By this stage I was pretty annoyed, given that I thought the restrictions of MFME and the control were not going to be an issue, so DT and I (he did the back end work I did the graphics) made and released it.
f*** me did that piss off DS. Mostly because some one could make layouts for the emu without having to go through him. We released another one and that pissed him off even more.
As for this code bollocks? that was CW basically looking for information on S2. Once again I was being used to do the dirty work, which tbh? over the past decade I've done plenty of.
CW, DT, you name it. I was always the one wanting to make layouts yet I found myself instead taking all of the bullets and bullshit whilst they just sat back squeaky clean. Me - the stupid f*****g mug who would be the spokesperson to take all of the crap.
In 2008, whilst in a heated argument with DT over Epee (once again I was taking all the crap so he could hide) I decided enough was enough. Since that day I have not spoken to him or any one else involved in the scene. I moved on to do other things.
Around four months or so ago Guitar contacted me. Not the other way around. My initial response was forget it. Just forget it, there is no way I was going through all that bollocks again. Then after a long chat with my lady over it she said that if I enjoyed it I should enjoy it again, yet, just be super cautious about what I let people get away with. I've always had a habit of trusting people too much and letting them f*** me over. Apparently that's normal for an Aspie, as we don't read others' intentions very well.
So I contacted Nick and for the past month or so we've been working away on Line Up. And that's it - it really is as simple as that. He hasn't asked me to front for an emu because he's in the wrong line of work to be doing so, he hasn't asked me to lie for him and he hasn't asked me to cover anything up. Quite simply we've just been working on Line Up, and that's it. All very boring stuff.
Right now DS has decided to come back on some pathetic revenge mission. He's basically holding a scene to ransom and issuing blackmail terms for some roms. This is something that's happened in the past quite a few times. Basically you have this guy you don't like very much and you want him to go away, so you find a way to turn every one against him. I've done it, Alex has done it.. f*** me, even Guitar has done it (go away and I'll release my emulator).
The thing is, due to the way humans work they will do whatever they have to do to get more. More, more more. It's all about greed it's what drives pretty much the entire human population.
It's actually quite pathetic really. As Guitar mentioned in another thread, these people turn up calling me the troublemaker and I quote poison, cancer, insert load of bollocks here and then hold a scene to ransom and nobody sees the hypocrisy in it because their eyes are immediately plastered over with the sight of what is in it for them.
It's absolutely and utterly ridiculous.
I've been through my scene divorce and when I did I asked the exact same questions of myself that I did when I divorced my first wife. And I got the same answers.Basically I spent quite a few years thinking about all of the things that the scene had done to wrong me, but, thankfully I also have the capacity to see what *I* did wrong and the mistakes I made and all of the cringeworthy moments thinking about the things I said and did in anger. God I felt like such a f*****g pillock.
But you learn and you move on. You forgive and you forget, because if you don't then you are going to end up paying quite a high psychological price for it.
For a while I pottered on making layouts for myself. I decided to push MFME, graphically, about as hard as I could. I did just that, created the MPU3 machines I liked the most and eventually (because giving has always been a part of me) released them. Not sat on them, not hoarded them.
Like many others as I have grown up I have learned. And that is not to try and control any one, nor put them in a situation I would not want to be in.
I don't like people ripping off my work. It doesn't matter how you attack me with it, nor from what angle, it is my work. If I spend the best part of a week (nearly a month on Line Up for Amber now) and some one comes along and replaces the side art and releases it as theirs, it f*****g pisses me off as it rightly should. This scene has always denied people their rights and civil liberties because it doesn't understand what it does to people. IE - release your layout unlocked. So the layout gets released unlocked and some one basically steals it. None of this can be even part ways understood by any one who has not made one themselves.
And every one has been made to look the hypocrite. Even when Nicky Special kicked off and demanded layouts be released unlocked he was taught a lesson when I did what he did (modding) and modded one of his layouts. His reaction? f*** me you'd think I raped his mother.
All of this could have been avoided from the very start had people just simply acted like they would in real life. But the internet is a fickle misstress and people soon forget their manners and start acting the c***.
So go ahead DS. Carry on with your mission 'o' spite. It won't get you anywhere and it won't make you feel better.
I will continue to work with Guitar on MPU3 as that's what he asked me to do. It's as simple as that, I have the PMs to prove it. And when it's all fixed and working I will sit back and watch absolutely nobody make layouts for it, because it's always easier to sit and talk shit and kick off rubbish like this than it is to put in some work.
And when it comes to work? with the exception of a few coders nobody has provided more than I have for this scene. So I don't really care how much you sit and accuse me of spoiling it when I have provided more layouts than any one else in the history of the scene.
